Month: June 2017
I was born with many talents and developed a sixth sense, just to help people around me, but I never had the feeling of “being special”.
I had an en-caul birth, born inside the entire amniotic sac. The nuns in the hospital called me ‘the gifted child of God “.I was born with many talents and developed a sixth sense, just to help people around me. but I never had the feeling “being special”.
“Everything what is different, is an occasion for bullying on this age. This brought me a lot of insecurities.”
As a newborn baby it quickly became clear that something was off with my eyes. Congenital cataract. After a few months the lens was removed from my left eye. Because of this condition, my eye didn’t grow any further and it turned from blue to green. As a teenager I struggled a lot with the difference in my eyes. Everything what is different, is an occasion for bullying on this age. This brought me a lot of insecurities. Now, after almost 10 years, I got the chance for this project. For people with different eye colors, my bullies didn’t get this opportunity. I am happy to grab this chance to make something beautiful out of my specialness. Nowadays I work as a teacher on an elementary school. Occasionally, the children notice my eyes and comment on that. Not always tactical, but very funny. One time, an 8 year old boy was very angry. I tried to calm him down by talking to him. He looked at me with his angry eyes and and suddenly his looked changed and he said: WOW TEACHER, your eyes are really cool. His anger disappeared. That was convenient! Piece by piece I accept my special eyes and I see it as something unique. This experience helps with this and I am grateful for that.
“My childhood was hard. And lonely. So I created my own world with heroes, dragons etc and I find my passion for theater. Thanks to that, I learnt to accept myself and to see an advantage to have a difference.”
One day, i open my eyes. One week after, one of the blue eyes i had turned to a dark brown. It surprised my family which love them immediately. It wasn’t a surprise for me. Everyday in the mirror, i saw a girl with different eyes. It were normal for me. But when i started school… I saw that no one have the same eyes like mine. Children didn’t understand and taught that i was a monster or an alien. A lot of children of my age didn’t want to play with me. But others give me a chance. Years after years, I’m feeling alone even if i had few friends. I was convinced that i was adopt, or an alien, or a Nature’s mistake. My childhood was hard. And lonely. So I created my own world with heroes, dragons etc and i find my passion for theater. I follow my passion in a theater school now to become actress. Thanks to that, i learnt to accept myself and to see an advantage to have a difference. I was not afraid of others and assume my difference. Since that point, people comes to me, around my 18 years. And opinions have change. People start to tell me that it is wonderful and beautiful. But i’m feeling alone because in my little town in the north of France, I was the only one with hétérochromia. I thought that I was like Clark Kent, arrived in a meteorite rain, on a ship ! And facebook gives me breath. I found a lot of groups with a LOOOOT of people around the world like me ! I was not alone any more. I was so happy… That day and today that you read my article.
My history isn’t spectacular or uncommon. I know that everywhere on earth, there are a lot of heterochromians or people with differences who are afraid and convinced like i was that they are monsters or mistakes.
No ! You aren’t ! It is a Nature’s gifs to you. You are beautiful and you are not like all the others. you are you. be proud of it.
And more important : You are not alone.
We are all here, like you : different and proud.